MY TURN

I wish my generation will start living in the present and get out of the past. If you think about it, the 80's and 90's still have a strong presence in todays society. We are living in the past too much.  Everyone is crying about how things arent the same but good things dont last forever first and foremost. Second of all, whether you realize it or not, our generation is revolutionary. Kids may not play outside as much anymore because of the internet but the internet has bought us nothing but good things. Especially with the recent events that went down (earthquake in Haiti, etc) it helps you when in desperate need. I love the designers we have who are living legends such as Marc Jacobs, Alexander McQueen, John Galliano, etc. They are todays Cristibol Balenciaga, Christian Dior, and YSL's. Same thing for artist such as Murakami, Kaws, Bansky, and Tim Burton. Lady Gaga, Rihanna, Beyonce, Kanye, Jay-Z, Justin Timberlake, and the list goes on. It shouldnt be a blasphemous if Kanye says he wants to be better than Michael Jackson, or when Jay-Z says he's better than Biggie. Why should anyone not want to be the best? Why cant't they get the chance to re-write history? It's different if it's a garbage comparison like Soulja Boy saying he's the next James Brown lol...but even Soulja Boy has his own place in history if he works hard enough. Lets live in the now so that we can tell our kids who we partied with at Webster Hall like Warhol did at Studio 54.

I try so hard....

Thats all you can do in life is try. You only live once. I came into this school thinking i was such a big shot. Look at me. I've ate and hung out at places with some of the industries heavyweights. I've been in magazines across the water. I know how to network. I know people. Some of my friends are celebs, others very well known and well on their way to that status. I been to a fashion show just because i can dress. I can dress and i can rap my ass off. I AM THAT N*%#@! I was just thinking these things though. Harmless thoughts right? I just can't let it get to me...i cant let it show. I refuse to be known as "cocky" and "arrogant". I dont want to be known as being politically correct, just honest. All of the above is great but it has nothing to do with design. Boy was i on another planet. There are kids in this school who dont know who Marc Jacobs is and wear dirty hand me down clothing but can drape their ass off. They can sew a french seam with their eyes closed for cristsake. And yet, here i cam, dapper as fuck, Jil Sander designed pants, Wallabee's laced precisely, Ralph Lauren scarf tied in a european manner and cant even pin the darts on the back off my dress correct after seeing it done by my professor MILLIONS of times. Who's the big shot now? All this time im laughing because the gay guy who sits across from me dresses like....SHIT and he can drape a cowl neckline in 1 hour with his hands tied behind his back. But i think im somebody because i know people, and i know designers and that means i can do this easy. Yeah right, big reality check. I had to reset my mind, gain back my confidence and work hard. This is a competition. At the end of the day, nothing else matters but the skill. Im not going to get anywhere if i cant fucking draw for shit or drape or sew. I need to constantly work and beat the hell out of my craft so i can get better and succeed. Im competing with kids from across the water, kids at F.I.T, kids at Parsons...what the fuck is a Wood Tobe? Anybody else besdies Jim Moore hear of that school? No? Thought so.

Walk, Walk, Fashion Baby

Shhhhh.....

Due to past events, i've decided to humble myself even further than i am as of right now. People dont understand me at all and no matter what i do they never will. I always said to myself "they dont get me now but watch when i become BIG". Then i look at situations that Kanye West and other big celebs and people still manage to call them all types of names in the book. My friends dont get it either. They dont understand that im literally starting from the bottom...(thats where im from) and i have to work 10 times harder than other kids because i dont have it as easy. So when im working all the time, they say i work too much, and complain and im like...dude, just support me. Dont look at it like im trying to avoid you and stuff, im just trying to reach my goals. I had no clue that was a crime. I know ALOT of people and it's hard to set aside days to chill with everyone. Especially when i need that time to take care of priorities. They always tell me i can wait until after college to work, or do what i want but they are wrong. Good things come to those that wait but only the things left by those that hustle. Thats what i call facts. I started grinding in August and in 5 months i've met too many celebs to name, i've been to a real fashion show, i've been in Japanese magazines, collaborated with Street Etiquette on a video dropping soon, worked for Jil Sander (literally) and so much more. I can only imagine where i'll be 5 years from now. Far from where i am now, i know that much.

Fresh start

Today was the first launch of the +J spring collection and it went well. Im blessed and humbled (sort of) to be chosen to work for Ms.Jil Sander. I was in the fitting room with her while she was taking care of a few clients and she's a very sweet person. Jil is also passionate about her work and clearly knows what she is doing. She goes as far as describing details on a shirt to some people. After Jil left, Lynn Yaeger came in and i greeted her by letting her know how much i loved her Lanvin bag and she told me she got it in Paris and she loves it. She also complained about how she wasn't invited to the press launch the day before (thats when all the press/friends/designers/rich people come to sip champagne and talk about shit) and i told her i was looking for her lol smh. After we  talked and i helped her and her guy friend out, i accidently called her Beth :-( as in...Beth Ditto. She replied "huh?" and i politely asked her name and she said Lynn and smiled and i said nice to meet you *whipes sweat off forehead*. There wasn't anything i wanted out of the collection besides the belts and this wool/mohair sports coat that i wanted. Oh yeah, and the dress shirts.